Having a moan

Been feeling a bit low for a while now.  Just under the surface all the time.  A kind of gnawing sadness.  And I feel resentment.  I resent that it feels like Leon has exchanged my happiness for his own.  Which is not how it is, and is also a very selfish view.  And there's a fear that the best, happiest part of my life is over, gone.  Which is ridiculous. And because of the hard winter some of my favourite plants have died which feels symbolic.

OK, so let's do a bit of positive thinking.  The weather is very clear, not hot today, but sunny.  Birds are singing.  Adam & Joe show is back.  Got time off work over Easter.  Hmm.  To be lonely in.  No!  To enjoy.  Maybe I need to get a dog.